I know. I'm just... glad I have someone I can trust.
[And he's almost surprised to say that aloud and realize that he actually does mean it. He can trust Komaeda. They're away from the extremes of the island, they're away from those kinds of weird situations where people were getting hurt, and Komaeda... Komaeda has done nothing but support him this entire time.]
[He hadn't been expecting to hear that, but the moment of confusion melted into a bright smile, and in his eagerness to just hug Hinata at those wonderful words he almost knocks over their lunch.]
I can't be the only person you feel comfortable around... what if something happens to me?
[What if they end up in a situation like the island...? He's still not entirely certain that they're in the real world, that this isn't just some other level of the Neo World Program.]
Not that I'd leave on purpose, but more like... if I get hurt. If we end up in another dangerous situation like the island.
[More than anything, he just doesn't want them to be isolated. But... well, at least Komaeda's talking to other people. It's all he can ask for at the moment.]
Just make sure you take care of yourself, too. For now... want to head to the library? I don't have any plans for the rest of the afternoon.
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[Maybe he should have kept that secret to himself and let Hinata have the illusion instead.... Too late now.]
It's not. And perhaps, what she showed you wasn't as much of a lie as you think. Perhaps it was someone she wanted to be?
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[He doesn't sound convinced, raking a hand through his hair.]
She didn't say goodbye, though. So she was what, just using me? Pretending to be someone she wasn't?
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[And he had identified with her pretty well, though he didn't approve of her methods or her lack of care for anyone.]
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[He can't help but think about Peko, and his teeth grit together.]
People aren't tools. She was... really kind to me, and I'm supposed to just accept that I didn't mean anything at all to her?
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[What else could he say? She had told him that no one mattered to her. The only people who seemed to for her were dead.]
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[He doesn't answer for a long while, just shaking his head. It's hard to reconcile this with the girl he'd known. Or thought he'd known, anyway.
Eventually, he just smiles weakly without looking up.]
At least you're still here.
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[What a silly thing to be glad over. After all, it was a choice to make whether to leave or stay once the ability to do so was reached.]
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[And he's almost surprised to say that aloud and realize that he actually does mean it. He can trust Komaeda. They're away from the extremes of the island, they're away from those kinds of weird situations where people were getting hurt, and Komaeda... Komaeda has done nothing but support him this entire time.]
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[He hadn't been expecting to hear that, but the moment of confusion melted into a bright smile, and in his eagerness to just hug Hinata at those wonderful words he almost knocks over their lunch.]
I'm so glad!
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[Hinata would scoot back, but they're in booths for a proper diner atmosphere and thus has nowhere to go.]
Y-yeah, I mean...
[He looks like he's about to say something, pauses, and thinks better of it.]
Yeah. I guess I do.
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[Not that he understood why, the reasons he thought about where all the wrong ones.]
But this means that we can work together better.
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[He laughs, kind of awkwardly, and tries to scoot back into his seat more properly.]
I mean... I'll try.
[It's unspoken, but it's obvious in his eyes in the look he gives the other boy -- don't do anything to make me regret this.]
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I know that you trying is already more than enough.
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[He exhales a sigh and shakes his head, lips twisting into a frown.]
Hey, Komaeda... have you been able to make any friends, here? It's different from the island.
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There are nice people I've talked to and done things with?
[Did that count as friends?]
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[He relaxes back in his seat and sighs.]
But I mean like... I don't know, someone you can confide in and feel comfortable around. Like... I thought maybe Hazama could have been.
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There are people I don't mind talking to about certain subjects, however, it would take more than casual interaction to get that close to someone.
Especially when there's already someone I confide in and feel comfortable around.....
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[What if they end up in a situation like the island...? He's still not entirely certain that they're in the real world, that this isn't just some other level of the Neo World Program.]
Not that I'd leave on purpose, but more like... if I get hurt. If we end up in another dangerous situation like the island.
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[Being alone again, not being able to be close to anyone.]
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Then I guess... all we can do is work together to make sure nothing happens to either of us. Make sure we'll be able to get back safely, together.
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Just make sure you take care of yourself, too. For now... want to head to the library? I don't have any plans for the rest of the afternoon.
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[Because even libraries on decadent space stations can do transfers? Or something like that.]
And don't worry, I'll keep my own limits in mind.
[Or try to.]